Maybe you don't know (my close friends will be finding out now), but I'm getting engaged in about a month. I have a lot to say about it because I like to write about important things, and secondly, I would like to share the joy of my heart with you and the whole universe.
My way of seeing the world and my aspirations have changed over time. Since I was a little girl, I have illustrated the table style for my wedding day, so long because we have to sit together. I designed the cake, imagined the ensemble with the cello and piano, and I have to mention the ring now. I've always wanted the same ring! Maybe for the movies, maybe for Audrey Hepburn in front of Tiffany's window.
However, I grew up and getting married quickly ceased to be my priority. I discovered men, and they became something different than what I thought. They were a pleasure but not a necessity. The plan was an apartment with tall white walls, an Italian coffee maker, a dog, and a computer. That was my new life dream; I love to have a good time with myself. I didn't spectate for my family, dog, and coffee maker during the last few years.
Single, lonely, and going out on dates, feeling surprised on these dates, I see that when I decide to get engaged with someone, I should be willing to leave a particular part of the world behind and love everything about that person, directly and simply. Her heart would be entirely mine, and mine would now be hers, and we would always put ourselves first. Everything changes from there to live; it is even more transparent and honest. I desire to do things right, not to fail, to take care of the good of this other person, and at all times, to honor their heart.
Yesterday I was thinking how much an innocent and sporadic moment can change the rest of life in a transcendental way. A year ago, I was only thinking about myself and what it had to do with me—my family, my friends, and coming back to me, always like this. We are here sharing what we like, and I have discovered a funnier, kinder, and softer reality.
For some time, we have been getting to know each other and building a bond on essential things, discovering our differences, our way of enjoying ourselves, and our future plans. We have taken the time to decide if we are the best for each other, with the same serenity we discussed on our first date, and the answer was yes.
I can imagine how we will lead our family with honor and integrity, letting our principles and dreams guide us in everything we do and every decision we make. I've thought about our families and friends coming together through us, how great that is, and how rampant I want to put my generosity to the test.
I am committed to spending the rest of my life getting to know every part of him. I have decided to love him with more patience and affection than I can imagine. So too, I am seeing from within this new person that I am. I love how we learn and grow. I love writing about an unconditional surrender that I didn't know before. Daily we are letting ourselves be and protecting ourselves unconditionally.
Regarding the specific facts, for the engagement, we want something straightforward and with few people, since we are both relatively uncomplicated, but at the same time, we hope it will be a loving and good moment for us and our guests. We are anxiously awaiting the date. About all the details, I must say that the guy I'm marrying has taken care that I don't find out too much, so I'll tell you in due time.
I can't wait for the best season of my life; Ale, we will be even better in forty years.